How to act, think, behave, perceive... for me:

How to act, think, behave, perceive... for me:

Bipolar -> Schizo-affective (ME) -> Schizophrenia

I am addicted to most anything I can think of, or become aware of. My addiction to alcohol is really any substitute. I know awareness is key. The key to resposibility. Responcible to my rights. Fight for my right. My goal? What is my goal? I know my mother and fathers life. I can see my lifestyle of friends and loved ones. What I am to do. Where am I to travel.


Respondaction
adult-hood
psychological (cognotive)
conscious
courageos
selfless
think before i act
not take drugs
work is all we do
do something nice for others


React
my two past hospital ward roomates
(talking to self, not accepting life.)
irresponsible
black-out (drink and drive, take a life)
psychosis
unconscous
selfish
consume (marijuana, addictive personality)


still i get my kicks from jay lenno who performed his chin all across my family's funny bone, fans of my grandparents. But I am 21, my friends are out at parties. My friends are living it up as it seems, while I enjoy staying in I am on the verge of motivating myself to become something more. Like i've said I want to help others. I need to start. I got a letter back from my friend in Prison he seems glad that I was still aware of him. I'm glad I got to him, I have talked to my friend about writing him too. I love weed, I love the smell of it, the taste of it. I cannot help it. mmm. Pinapple express intro, loved it.