"As for me, you must know I shouldn't precisely have chosen madness if there had been any choice. What consoles me is that I am beginning to consider madness as an illness like any other, and I accept it as such. - Vincent Van Gogh, 1889

i am taking abilify for my voices. Lets listen to what I "hear" durring algebra class.


The paranoia lists as follows:

See he's very smart
he thinks - he's very artistic
(every cough or moan is a sign to me)
he's scared
he's concentrating
is he mind testing
I think so
Listen to our notes
X I need a girl
"ugh'"
he's on a role
look at him
making faces
"peter"

what'd you say
see he think
peter is talking
" wants sex
look at that
take that
pete

he knew it was
shut up
you know know (FUCK PLEASE STOP- me)
sit in the back of the class
he's still writing
trio (NO.)
damn u
shoulda got
me do it
(thank god) oh
he forgot for a second
"Peter!"
wana fuck me

i heard today, "Life is about the journey, not the destination."

I took drugs and it increased my mania. The more and more brought on psychosis. I heard voices.