Where i am:

scared.



Lonely, thats what i've been...
Im afriad. Im lonely. Im alone. ALONE. Its like thisz: I feel this repeat of pain. I hurt. and it hurts. I can't breathe. My body is emotional, and my mind is a physical wasteland. I am gone. I am on the verge. Forgetting and Begetting silence. An Old dirty frivolous bastard. Trapped inside, nothingness. Tank empty. No fuel. No nothing? I am a stranger. I am not permanent. I am just visiting. Depression. Manic Depression's touching my soul. Crushing sweet music. I wish I could caress a kiss. A touch. My finger. My fingers. Break my Neck. KILL KILL KILL. FUCK CANCER. love jesus. WHO? WWJD? Who would jesus do. Ask your nearest politician. Would Jesus VOTE? Consiousness be damned in a society insane.

"Even the smallest act of kindness will not go unnoticed." Aesop

Why must i feel this way?


pDoc: w/ all these hallucinations and mixed episodes I cannot rule out schizo-effective.

of coarse I would have the bipolar version. However, I have history of family depression.

NotoriousLiz: "we have to think positive."

I woke up with a noose around my neck, in my dream. I have a dream.

Tdoc: "Dreams are only dreams. You're not alone. Literally, I am in the room with you."