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When I was in my drinking career in high school I went to a party in my old neighborhood CCH. I drove there and followed a friend. I then parked my car down the street and met up with my friends and started to pre-game. I then gave my keys to my friend so I wouldn’t drive that night. We started to drink orange juice and Everclear. Then I remember walking in the party saying high to other people and then I blacked out. The next thing I remember I was in my car right outside the party and one of my friends Eddie was telling me to get out of the car, that’s when I sped off pretty fast. I then remember calling my best friend mike while driving and asking him how he was doing and telling him what I was doing. The next thing I remember was breaking into a window halfway in and halfway out at my old friends house Ryan. (it turns out the woman in Ryan’s house was in the military and had a gun wasn’t home) After that I blacked out again and remember waking up in the basement, then my mom calls me on the phone. As I walk outside the house she says, “Where are you!!!! What are you doing!!! Don’t go anywhere the cops are coming for you. I was still heavily drunk so I walk out to my car, which is out on the street (they had to tow it from a neighbors driveway) and sat in it. Then the first cop car came and the lady officer said I still reeked of alcohol and then I noticed a cut on my arm. I then went home, puked, and had a major headache. I went to court and received “trespassing” probation for a year and 40 hours of community service. My name was in the papers under local crime.

I recently have been looking on the internet about storys with Schizoaffective and I came across Intrusive thoughts. I have had some trouble dealing with these. However, my spiritual readings have helped my deal with them. Like instead of avoiding thoughts move to a new thought.

Inappropriate sexual thoughts

Sexual obsessions involve intrusive thoughts or images of "kissing, touching, fondling, oral sex, anal sex, intercourse, and rape" with "strangers, acquaintances, parents, children, family members, friends, coworkers, animals and religious figures", involving "heterosexual or homosexual content" with persons of any age.

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