Its as almost as if I've been putting this off for a while and I just want to be honest. I am grateful. Thank you.

I am indifferent. "I never acted cool, it was impractical" - eminem. Everybody wants to rule the world. Or at least their world. Thy will be done, not mine. I havn't been to a meeting in a while so thats while I dont feel so healthy. However work will get that off my mind. I might head out early today to get some acne relief pads. I am sick to hear that the owner of megaupload got 50 years in prison. I dont even know if thats true or not but MEDIA should be FREE to the FREE. Is that freedom or what. I'm not going to even say anything about how there is a War on Drugs and a War on Terror. Occupy the streets is more like Occupy your minds. "Go to hell if what your thinking isnt right, the Love would never leave us alone, the darkness must come out to light." - Bob Marley. I pray as marley did that everyone in the world live in harmony. Could you be loved?

I am on my second stint of recovery. I almost had 3 years and then I lost track of the fellowship started marijuana maintenance. I feel like i needed this kick in the rear. I was going to start my steps over eventually i knew it i was just getting stagnant. I realize now i am an addict as well as an alcoholic. My blues name is sleepy dog blue. Whatever that means.

I am so content with my life right now. I have all of my needs and some of my wants. Thats the way it should be. The way is inside. Not outside. I feel a weight on me, but its just a matter of time until its lifted because emotions do not tell us who we are. Just as thoughts don't matter. Just as space and time are illusions. I am not Peter d, 24, of fairfax va, who works at marlin and rays. I am spirit. I am a spec of consciousness out of the collective consciousness. Life is but a dream and my dream has come true over and over again, always Now. It is the isness and suchness and I am grateful to be alive.

I have so much love and a love that i want to spread as a deejay I pray today for a bright holiday.