Little things help when your depressed

Little things help when your depressed like talking to people. When I went out to this nya activitie group i was listening to biggie smalls ready to die. And as we got to the spot me and friend sang the lyrics "i dont want to live no more, sometimes i hear death knocking at the front door, i live every day like a hustle, another drug to juggle, another day another struggle." And if i were to sing that alone i would just feel depressed, but when we both sang it i felt a glimpse of happiness i was happy for a moment.

Nya at the kavasutra turned out to be kava bar no hookah, but i asked to play on this guys guitar and together sang What I Got by sublime. And it was in front of all my support friends and they were stalefaced but one of my friends came up afterward and said man your crazy! i was like thanks!

since we were a little dissapointed about the kavasutra (i wish it was kamasutra) we went to aya's house. It was right near by and awesome. Beautiful house and she had a guitar. One guy wasnt feeling too well isolating in her room while we were downstairs in the living room playing guitar drums and bored-games. Anywase i went to go talk to him
and he just said he had been depressed for 5 months and felt like he was just going down
then another friend walked in and shared his experience simple things like "it gets better" and he finally came downstairs where i played a request for him sweet child of mine guitar solo included and he was thrilled to hear it

then we went out through the backyard to the golf course where we walked to the middle then i put on a dance song where i heard aya dance to on dance-dance-revolution. "It aint nothing like hip hop music" so i put that song on and started trying to break dance. i fell on my ass and people laughed but then one person did a flip off his back and then a front flip so the guy who was feeling down, now laughing, tryed the front flip but EPIC FAIL. landed on his knees. he
laughed it off and left feeling on a great note.

today my meds really kicked into high gear i woke up for a doctors appointment at a normal time but i could barley keep my eyes open. I fell asleep in the waiting room and then when they called me i jumped up like it was nothing

i felt pretty subdued the whole day until i finally agreed to go out with my friend. When he came i was waiting out in the street for him and i did a jive dance and it made me laugh so i felt better.

then we went to a friends house played pool (i won 1 game) and then got my guitar and had a fire pit where i played some bob marley and indian classical music.